I'm Onyxicca. Ony for short.

I've spent years creating content around World of Warcraft, primarily Mythic+ healing as a Restoration Druid. That work helped grow my channel and connected me with people who understand high-stakes gameplay, split-second decisions, and the specific intensity of keeping a group alive when one mistake cascades into failure. Most of my runs were with random players, no voice communication, no coordinated strategy. Just quick decision-making under pressure.

I'm grateful for those years. But I've also been building something else.

Why I'm Changing Direction

I have challenges related to chronic illness, namely autoimmune health issues. For a long time, that made content creation incredibly difficult to balance with just surviving in the real world. Content creation was always something I wanted to do on the side, but my health had to come first. And honestly, it's been a struggle. Trying to maintain a consistent upload schedule while dealing with chronic fatigue, brain fog, and unpredictable flare-ups meant I often felt like I was failing at both.

The WoW content I was making also had a built-in expiration date. Every video became obsolete within a season. Dungeons rotated out of the Mythic+ pool and wouldn't return for years. I was pouring energy into work that disappeared with every patch cycle, and as my health got worse, I couldn't keep up.

I realized I needed to create something that didn't expire. Something that reflected the reality of what I was actually living through, not just the narrow lane I felt permitted to stay in.

What I'm Building Now

I'm working on a project that blends gaming, gothic aesthetics, personal transformation, and systems thinking. It's a newsletter and grimoire series that explores how we navigate life under altered conditions.

I use games as a language to explain real-world concepts. Crafting mechanics in Path of Exile taught me more about resource management and decision-making than most productivity advice ever could. Soulslikes like Elden Ring and Bloodborne show us that the struggle, the learning, the building up... that middle part where you're still figuring it out... is actually the most valuable part of the journey. You don't need to be in god mode to have something worth sharing.

That's what this project is about. Sharing from the middle. Not waiting until everything is resolved or perfect or "done."

What I Create

Newsletter - A monthly series exploring systems, symbols, and survival through the lens of gaming, science, and lived experience.

Grimoire Fragments - Visual pages designed like lore fragments in games like Elden Ring. They include symbolic imagery, reflections, and space for you to write your own experience alongside mine. Over time, they'll form a complete digital grimoire you can print and keep.

IRL Quest Cards - Real-world reminders and challenges inspired by RPG mechanics. Because sometimes we need tangible "quests" to get through the day.

Affirmation Content - Grounding statements and extended meditation videos designed for sleep, relaxation, or background listening.

Games I Love

I'm drawn to games that respect difficulty and reward pattern recognition. ARPGs, soulslikes, and anything that makes you learn through failure instead of hand-holding.

Currently playing: Path of Exile 2, Elden Ring and Bloodborne (always), No Rest for the Wicked, anything with good build diversity, and of course, when I can afford a sub, WoW for the M+ experience. 

All-time favorites: Elden Ring, Bloodborne, WoW (obviously), Path of Exile

What's Next

This ecosystem is still growing. The newsletter launches soon (free for all members) along with the accompanying grimoire (available for paid members.) The grimoire will eventually be available as a complete printed book with the help of ongoing support from subscribed members. The shop expands with each new theme.

If you're here, you're early. And I'm glad you found this.